Pain is a catalyst for growth.

That was the mantra that I repeated in my head the next morning as I drove to work. It was the mantra that I repeated in the back of my head throughout the day. It was six simple words that reminded me that the ice would always melt and new flowers would bloom. It was the mantra that reminded me that the universe has an interesting way of showing you what you needed to see.

Recently, I lost someone I deemed very important to me. I knew that our time would end. The situation was not ideal for growth, but my stubbornness prevailed. By the time the final words were said I had already accepted it for what it was.  No tears flowed, no pain gripped my chest, it was just simple acknowledgement of what I knew to be true. I had gotten to a point where I knew that no words or actions could save this and we needed time apart. But I was too afraid to end it myself. I feel no anger towards that person. In fact, I feel joy. I feel relief because at this moment in time, it wasn’t right.

I have a feeling our paths will cross again. But I know that even before they do I have a lot of growing to do. I have a lot of things to hash out with myself so the baggage will not come with me. So, for the next several months that’s what I will be focusing on. And when that time comes for us to meet again, I will be ready.

If it was meant to be, it will be.

Until next time friends,